It's irritating!!!

Right now, I'm already in High School and I found nothing changed within me except what I have to study. Looking at my friends, who have boy friend/girl friend drive me crazy. I cannot stand this anymore!!! :( Everyone has someone they care about, or someone who cares about them, I want to love and beloved also... However, things always turn out that no one likes me. Is it because I'm not beautiful? I'm fat? I'm not good at studying? I don't have talent? My personality is bad? Am I greedy or mean? I don't know!!! My mom always tells me that: "You just met the wrong guys, the right one will soon approach!!"

And when is that?? Is it because I am still young? 16? Okay, may be I am still young but at least I want to experience "love youth" :"< Seeing my friends like that, I know that I should be saying things like congratulations and give them private spaces. Yeah I did! And so, I am alone. My 2nd mother is in another school. My sis is in America and my bro is in Australia!! I can't stand this anymore! I hate being an FA so much...

Even when I have my best friends, they have to study at school while I'm stuck with this visa-waiting-thingie. :"< Can anyone tell me why or at least be my friend and talk to me :"<

A cloudy day

It's a cloudy day with light rain sometimes during the day. It feels cool and makes me can't help but feeling lazy :3

Listening to the song Katayoku no Tori (片翼の鳥) chills me up :3 I want to learn to play piano so bad :]]] even when I did not finish the other song of Sound Horizon.

Oh yeah, in my Japanese lesson, I'm making progresses. Learning new kanji! e.g 会社員　銀行員　自動車　etc.

It makes me proud and think that I'm a genious, even though I'm not! (TOT)

Yeah, I still not yet to be heard about my visa. ( ･`ω･´) therefore I'm using most of my time in drawings, I'm planning toget back to painting also, when I have time...

And below is the pic I finished recently.