Yeah, it's the end of our school year. Yesterday, we have a prom night at new world. I tried to dress up more carefully than usual and my mom helped me too. It's great that most of my teacher found me looking pretty or even beautiful. I'm glad. However, I came with my friends but nearly at the end, I felt a lityle bit left out. You know, no boyfriend, closest friends - one is studying abroad, one is in a different school and one is having fun with his girlfriend. I know that I also isolated myself by saying that I will go home early...
And yeah, C is right, I always tried to deny my feelings and show my smiling mask... Yesterday, I avoided that person. I didn't want to see him. I know that I have to move on and bury this special feeling deep deep in my heart. Yeah... I tried to like someone else, but it always turned out that they have someone in their heart.
I'm scared of being hurt. For more than four years, I felt happy with those memories that I thought were happy moments. I know that I just trying to fool myself.
I don't know... well okay. I feel better after writing it down in this anonymous blog of mine. Love you <3
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